Ruth Stoops

I was writing an update email to one my dearest friends and decided to, in the name of energy conservation, copy and paste.  If it’s worth saying once, it’s worth saying twice, no?

My life still revolves around men, even at this stage in my life.  (I know, Landon’s not quite a man, although he seems to be heading there much too quickly.)  Especially during this maternity leave phase, my sun rises and sets with these Stoops men.  More than I am comfortable with sometimes.  But I think it has taught me some valuable lessons about myself, as relationship usually does:

I am selfish. In the past, I have prided myself with being a servant (not sure that pride and service mix…ha), but the whole sleep deprivation, I’m-The-Only-One-With-The-Boob, life-altering role change thing really opened my eyes to how central I am in my world.  It has taken WORK to grow up and be this kid’s mom.  There have been countless times where I am whining in my head…..”Who’s gonna take care of ME?….I’m tiiiiiired…why can’t someone else be his mom tonight?”  It’s pathetic, really.  There’s a little girl in me who is resisting responsibility, and I have to spank her everyday.